For the past couple of days it has been SHIT. Not only because of the rain, but also because I'm sick. ) : NOOOOOOO! I almost lost my voice during the weekend, it was pretty random how my voice was going away and I sounded like a douche, LOL! And for the past 2 days, I've been sick and I can't breathe. ) : Ughhh..FML literally! Anyways, nothing really great has happened lately..besides that Friday's cotillion practice was actually good, because we actually practiced. LOL! Our first accomplished practice, but 3 people weren't there but it's all good. My best friend came over, yaaaaay! ( : I haven't seen him in so long, it was just good to see him..I missed him a lot. More than he ever knows, hahaha! : D But it was good, seeing him this Friday again. You better not flop Michael ! LOL.




And I can finally say...I'm completely over you.
"Loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right, and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life... And sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again...

For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person...In my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else... Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love. Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little...

As we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right...

Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them, we are just for past times, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger...

So here's a piece of advice: Let go when you're hurting too much. Give up when love isn't enough, and move on when things are not like before... For sure, there is someone out there who will love you even more..."

- Carnelle Valbuena
Everytime I try to leave, something keeps pulling me back, telling me I need you in my life. Everytime I try to go, something keeps telling me that everything gonna be alright. Everytime I try to leave, something keeps pulling me back, telling me I need you in my life. It was meant to be, you were meant for me. So that means we gotta make it work.

It sucks, because that's how you make me feel everyday. There's something about you that keeps me there, and my feelings for you haven't gone away. Even if it's been months now, it's still there and I don't think they'll ever go away.

It'd be a miracle if I forgot all about you, but I doubt that'll ever happen.
Well, for the past couple of days it has been quite eventful I must say, lol! I don't even remember what happened last week actually, cause nothing really happened. FML. I'll just recap on the days I remember what happened....Monday: had a surprise visit from none other than Francis and Jonelle, and then Dean came over. Oh man, I haven't seen him for a long while. Didn't do much, we sat on my porch talking about stuff, lol. Thursday: Francis came over again to fix my computer, it's somewhat fixed. But he fucked it up, lol! Then he left around 4:30ish because he had to go to cotillion practice. Friday: woke up quite early and left for Heartland with my mom, sister and little cousin. Bought shorts from Urban Planet, and I found the cutest dress ever in Espirit but I didn't end up buying it. I regret not buying it. ) : Then we went to No Frills to buy some food for later on and headed to Shoppers World to refill the ink and buy some flowers for my debut. Then headed to my cousin's house around 5:30ish, and people started coming but we didn't end up practicing because well Brandon came late and people had to leave quite early. So me, Brandon and Jen were left. But later on, manang Brittany came and David came back. LOL! Loafted for a long time and eventually everyone left around 12ish. Saturday: woke up and headed to my cousin's place yet again to do the invitations. Then we left around 6:30ish to pick up manang Kayeleen from work. We went to Pizza Pizza and then headed our way to CHUCK N CHEESE. That's where we went off and I got jackpot, yaaaaaaah boy! hahaha! It was pretty jokes, we won prizes..me, manang Maya, manang Kayeleen and Quennie put all our tickets together and we ended with about 1165 tickets or more. While Crizabella only ended up with 170 tickets, lol! Then we dropped off manang Maya at Kipling station, then me and Quennie got dropped home. Sunday: woke up and got ready, around 12ish we headed our way to manang Brittany's house. We loafted and waited for the BBQ to be done and then we ate lunch. We all chilled in the backyard and things, around 3:10ish we got dropped off at AMC and we met up with manang Kayeleen. We bought our tickets for Transformers 2 and then went to McDonald's to buy food for the movie, lol. To my surprise Cathleen and her family were all there, random. LOL! But it was nice seeing them, I swear in every movie I watch I always have to piss! I had to hold in my pee for thee longest time, omgosh..But Shia LaBeouf is a fucken hottie for real♥( : So once the movie was done, we were trying to figure out who's going to pick us up. In the end, we called up Reymar and he picked us up. HAHAHA! He drove us to manang Brittany's house. We chilled for a bit and then around 8:30ish, we got dropped off home.

That was basically all I could remember of what happened. Today, didn't do much actually..I went bike riding with my sister and little cousin. LOL! So, Wednesday my grandparents are leaving for Philippines and also going to watch Harry Potter early in the morning with Katrina and Francis. Stoked for the movie? OH YES! ( :
So, I haven't updated my blog since...last Monday I believe? Damn, it's been a while...But, the past 2 days have honestly been thee best, hands down. LOL!

Friday: I waited for my mom to come home from work so we can go to BCC to get my phone fixed, but the guy that I talked to last Sunday wasn't there, so I have to go tomorrow. We walked around and I saw Melanie Lomboy and Shanae. Oh, I haven't seen them in a while. Then, my mom dropped me and my sister to my aunt's house so we can get some work done for invitations. We got most of it done and then manang Brittany came over. We chilled, we were outside most of the time taking like millions of pictures. We walked/biked around the block and then the parents left to go casino. We made pizza, and sang kareoke until the parents came home, lol! Damn....it was incomplete, because we forgot to bring the drinks that we didn't finish from last Saturday, lol! So, they didn't come home til like around 1:30ish. And, then we headed home around 2ish.
Saturday: Woke up, got ready and waited for my mom to come home. While waiting, I was watching SISTER SISTER. Oh man, I use to watch that show everyday. ( : Then, we left and went to Shoppers World to refill ink, and we went to go buy some paper. Headed to my cousin's house again, made tacos and bbq( : Did the invitations and center pieces and we kind of loafted. Manang Brittany come over again. It was such a mission to find the ice cream trunk, since when we came outta the house the ice cream trunk was gone. But we were determined to buy some ice cream, lmao! We finally bought ice cream and walked back to Isa's house. Then, me and tita Cherry tried doing more stuff for the invitations. We ate dinner and then chilled. We had like thee longest talk as a family, and it was about my debut, lol! We had like a good 2 hour talk about it and stuff, it was quite interesting...hahaha! Then everyone left around 11:40ish and now I'm here at home updating my blog, because I realized that I haven't updated for like 2 weeks basically.

And tomorrow...me, Quennie and manang Brittany are gonna go watch Transformers 2, since Katrina flopped on me! Sheeesh, but whatever...I get to see my cousin tomorrow again, 3 days in a row. And also gonna get my phone fixed...hopefully *cross fingers* Also, cotillion practices are starting this Friday. Oh geeez, I get to spend more time with my partner in crime and best friend, and I like that because I don't spend much time with them like I use too. I miss both of them tons.

I'm scared to lose you, I know it sounds selfish for everything that I said. But, I can't put myself through the same thing again. I've lost you once, I don't want to lose you again. You know you mean more to me than anyone in this world, and you matter to me the most. I just want us to stay the way it has been for the past couple of years, I don't want any changes between us. People say that I should trust you and I have nothing to worry about, but they don't know what I've been through and how much you mean to me. You are the greatest person to walk into my life and I'm thankful for everything you've done for me. I just hope I don't fuck it up a second time.